Tell Me a Secret: 12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004

Thursday, December 25, 2003

hey.. is my mail soon as i have time..i'll make a link.
Ann Garrison..Is a really nice American lady..Who sent me a mail telling me that herself and her husband(who served in the war) respect our rights in freedom and dignity..And that they both really want to help us..And that they pray for us to build our own civilian proud country.
she is really sincere..I could easily c it through her words.
well..Here I have to say something..Speaking for myself,,I have nothing personal against the soldiers here..And ofcource not against the civilian American in their country..And I have no dout that most them really wanted to help and to do something good for this country.and for Iraqi people. But what I want to say is that some people with suits and large desks in the white house and other places..Are NOT that nice and sincere,,and..
we have a say : believe half of what you see and nothing of what you hear...And believe me..The man who made this say..Never saw the media of these days..Cause if he did..He would have said " believe nothing at all..And kill journalists"
guys..Let me say this:
what if somehow..Lets say Russia occupied your country (which "happens" to be a really rich country with oil and other resources) and actually destroyed the whole country..Killed civilians..Used cluster bombs..Chemical weapons(believe it or not..I have the pictures of the dead bodies)..Destroyed houses..Caused the looting of the whole governmental system..The ministries..All the police stations and fire departments..Airports..Whatever you think..And after that..They make a new TV and newspaper and radio station and start telling you how happy you should be and how grateful you must be for them for liberating you..And a while after..They put the pictures of your country president (doenst matter if you hate him or not) on TV with people playing with his face....Now take a moment..Close your eyes..Look through the window..And imagine that everything you c is destroyed..Every place you love is either bombed or looted..Everyone you love is probably dead or injured..And add to that a vey cold weather..No electricity..No petrol..Now open your eyes and tell me...Does it really matte if the soldiers or their families are kind people?

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

hey..just wana say two things.thw first one is that other people do not have mobile phones at all..most of people if not all of them have never see it in their lives.
the other thing is:
the issue of the day is:: what would you feel when you c the president of your country,, even if you hate him..being caught by a "super power"/"the devil himself" and shown on tv with people playing with his nose or something.
thank you.
my family..Is one of the very few,probably the only, family in Baghdad that is equipped with mobile phones..The reason behind that is that there was a special network established after the war for the NGOs (non governmental roganization).. And I was working with an NGO..My brother established an NGO, and so did my father,,, So, we can communicate all the time, which is nice.. and strange(!).......But,,,,
the only problem is that in Baghdad..You don't get enough electricity during the 24 hours to charge your mobile!! Isn't that just funny?
this is exactly like the fact that my dear brother, bought a Mercedes,ML430, with few tons of money,,and he..Actually we(since the whole family is ivlolved in the searching process) cant find petrol to let it move!!
as for my family's other cars..One of them is covered and stopping in the garage..And the other one is being used economically,,, look Mercedes: we already bought three cars from you..Cant you provide us some gas too?
the other fun fact is that there is a governmental internet service, which can be provided for you at home, a dial up service, but unfortunately..Most of the neighbor's still have no phones!
the last fun facr here is that we have been *liberated* and we went throught a war..A waaaaar//it shouldn't be a short word ,war, considering the mass of its meaning and consequences// and Saddam was captured..So are the whole play card set..And still..We don't have a president!

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

I think that I have a problem!
I am,,ehh,,over friendly?
is there such a thing?
I dunno..I know that a lot of girls think that am in love with them!!
I mean..It seems that men ARE really pigs..So when women c one nice guy..They just cant believe it..And when they meet an extra nice guy (as myself ;) they think" men cant be that nice..He must be in love with me"
should I slap *them*some times or something? :)
- hey..Good morning...Then bon..A slap..Then she thinks" ah .This is a normal guy..Its safe to hang up with him" :)
sow..I need some help here ..
take care of yourself..Don't show my blogging to your mams,,remember that our mission is not to let them know who we really are.

Monday, December 22, 2003

do i love her?
everyone keeps asking me the same question. gona disapoint you all..i dont!
but i wouldnt think that this kind of secrets what you are after..right ;)
SO, i have someone elese in my mind/not my heart/ and am not sure what to do.
here am i talking about uninteresting stuff again.
ok, it is funny what happened day you c people and they all seem to love Saddam and they seem to be happy with the system and the baath party..and most of them were actually attanding the party meetings,,and...
next day at the uni..after the war..i saw the same people i saw for the last four years..the same faces..but the funny thing that they all have defferent openions!some of them turned out to be a biiig opposite and a Saddam hater..most of them i have to say..and some others..were still loving Saddam and defending him..the most amazing part was about that doctor..who was leading the party meetings..and now he is giving us lectures about how happy should we be for getting red of Saddam!..its such a wierd situation...the day Saddam was caught,,i entered the classroom and i just didnt know what to say! i said loudly.."assalamo alaykom" ...which is the normal "hi" everyone gave me attention,,i said " congratilations for those who are happy.and deep sempathies for those who are sad" !! i wanted to please everyone..but it ended up that the both sides hated me:)) i think!
Propably..Saddam is one of the very few individualse on the green plnet that i hate..
but still..the last thing i thought of when i saw him between "their" to be sorry to disappoint you CIA folks..but i didnt receive your soldiers with roses..and i wasnt happy for Saddam's arrest.
know why?
cause propably, althought we hate him..although he distroyed us completely..although he distroyed our economy..our lifes..even our relegion,,but still, he was one of the few left who werent in the american conspirany ..i meen..he was one of the few who said NO to the devil (american fellows..nothing personal..its your goverment who am talking about),,propably that what made me sad,,again..the bad guys won.
we have that say here.."the enemy of my enemy is my friend" i think that is whats happened here.
enemy?ya,,unfortuantly..your goverments policy put them (and sometimes you) in the position of the enemy..isnt that true?
know something? i like american people..lately..during and after the war..i met so many foreigners,the thing that wasnt possible before;europians..americans..far east people..far west people..i worked with some of them..i made friendships with many others..and am still making new friends,,,what i want to according to my strange way of observing human behaviour..i look to people as if they were another specie..another kind of life..even iraqi and arab people..this way i can think silently..make judgments..avvoid the pre-made ones.
so,,after that process..i discovered..and dont laugh here,,,that we all are human beings!,we all have the same dreams...we all have the same hopes..we all have the same ambisious..we laugh..we cry..we want to raise our kids..we want peace..we want to feel happy..we want to love and be loved..isnt that right?
say yes please.
so if me..the simple 21 years old guy living in baghdad, where they lately heared about this invention called internet..and where they havent seen a mobile phone or a cridit card in their lifes..where no one ever heared about the big Mac (!), i say if I could c it..why the hell cant "one" of the most advanced goverments in the history of humanity c it too?
ya talking to you.
we were having a simple life..where the basic life needs are available and cheap..where security is not an issue..we used to drive back home at 3 am and feel safe..we lived a life where we didnt have the right to say something about poletics..thats true..and where people were killed for cursing Saddam..thats least we had a life..we could leave our places not worrying about the possibiliy of me not taking the insult of an american soldier who insult people on check points and do something afraid that "they" would kill me by afraid that anyone of my family could get the same afraid that they will break suddenly into my place looking for someone or something and distroy and steal everythingn in the critisize the americans..cause Bramer actually made a law for that saying that any kind of inflaming feeling against the ocupation will be considered as an attack or afraid to go back home..cause i know that there would be no electricity and that it will be dark and blue.
believe it ot not guys,,before you we had a life..a slow motion low-teck life? thats true..thanks to *you* we had a life,,,but now.....we dont.

Sunday, December 21, 2003 usual..i came to the uni morning..although i was really tired..and i was thinking of giving my self a day off..but i remembered all my mum's lectures about responsibility and these stuffs and decided to go anyway,,,after i took all the trouble and managed to get there/here(am in the uni now..they finally openned an internet service) i found...I f o u n d...that all the departments, including my department, Environmental Engineering(you must be impressed by now) are closed!! i couldnt believe it...first of all i thought that god finally answered my prayers and they actually cancelled the uni establishment..but shortly after i decided to KNOW whats going took a dep breath..and walked towards the paper on the department door..hoping that whats written is not gona destroy my innocent dream,, but unfortuanitally..that happened :(
it turned out that nothing happened at all..its just that someone, propably a student, through a grinade on a doctor's house, not forgetting to add a twist of machine gon bullets.
big deal!
c? and there are actually some ungrateful bastards who dont aprecciate the "libration"..for those i say..who gave you that day off? ha?
all the teachers decided not to teach for that day.
security situation is the ocupation responsibility, stupid Saddam could control it, when a crime used to happen..the whole city used to know about it..and you'l find everyone talking about it..that was low-tech saddam's result,,and now THE hi-tech USA cant garantee that your college will not be bombed any moment..daah.
now tell there anyone out there who still doesnt wana be librated yet?
SO...and since my stories always start with so, i'll share this story with you.
Couple of days of the guys in my class decided to give us a break of the "structures" lesson, basically, the doctor is a nice, alittle bit dull person..he is so "ROSS" from friends.
my wiked friend..bought a really big "taraqa" which is kind of a very loud fire work..and he made some arrangmetsnt so he can fire it up from his place in the classroom.
ok, few silent moments passed..while everyone was actually it was b o o o m...and everyone stood up at the same moment and the students started to scream " a booomb..doctoorrr..we dont wana die here..we cant give that much in the line of eduacation..our parents expect to c us again..etc" while the girls started to scream and it was a reallllyy big mess.
the poor doctor was really astonished..he decided to take the lead and act according to his he started shouting" my children..calm down..if we were supposed to die here we will die here..we must be strong..we shouldnt let this stop us from living our lifes.."and so on. it was a big comedian seen.. which gave us a reason to laugh for minutes..but at the same breaks your tears out when you remember, that everyday in Baghdad,,,this could happen to you for real.

Saturday, December 20, 2003

am still busy with my exams..can you emagine what is it like to live in baghdad now AND got o university at the same time?
sure you cant..propably now your sitting somewhere in hawayee having fun and enjoying reading my amazing blog...grrrr.
i'll tell you what.
I wake up at 7 am while my uni starts at 8:20,,knowing that the road takes about 20 minutes.
the reason for sure, is not that am such a hyper active is to things actually, the first thing is thanks to our *friends* the most important streets in baghdad are closed, for security reasons, or just cause Bramer Husein like it that way,,who cares..the thing that made baghdad a big piece of trafic jam,,the other reaosn is that i have to stop in the street for a reeaally long time in order to find a taxi, cause the road is 20km, mostly hi-way streets..and no one have enough petrol in his car to afford this journy. fill your either stop in the q for 12 continuious hours sometimes,and yet sometimes you may not get lucky enough to get your 30 Liters of petrol (which is the max limit) ..OR buy it from the black market..for 20 times doubled prices, comparing to the pre-war period..AND by that you'd be riscking being *caught* for buying from the black market, the thing that garantees you 10 YEARS in preson, the prison of our librating friends.
did i forget to thank them for librating us? rude!

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

i decided to share THE secrets with you.
but, i have one condition, the use of these information must be only according to the privacy policy, ok?
come there is someone out there actually read it!
note : this is what they call a joke (like in ha..ha..ha)
ok, i'll start here..from this place in baghdad, my sad beloved tell you THE secrets.
note: for those who are looking for the best way to solve a third degree defrential equation, get lost.
fine, this all was a 1 , 2 , 3 test..
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